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Why the fuck is Nick Blogging??

Before I begin to blog I want to get a few things out about, why I am doing this, what to expect and why or why not to read. There is a couple reasons I wanted to start blogging, First I like to think I am a pretty humorous guy and if I can put a smile on one person's face it will be worth it. Secondly I love nothing more than engaging in meaningful conversation or debate, when I put an idea out I want people to challenge my ideas and vice versa. Finally I believe it will be a great way to help myself. Being able to hold myself accountable for goals/plans, or talk about difficulties in life that I as part of the silent majority deal with. 

To be completely honest I do not know if I will ever blog again or if I will ever post this original blog anywhere. What I can tell you to expect is the unexpected, I want to allow all different sides of my personality and interests to show. I want to focus on satirical and comical blogs, mental health, and business. Don't be surprised about random fits of passion pertaining for seemingly meaningless subjects. 

Finally the very obvious reason is as a copping mechanism to deal with the sudden death of my Dad. I want to use this blog as a way to keep track of my passions and goals; to use this as a reminder to work at these with drive I never thought I had. Finally I hope this blog can bring peace to those who know me and worry for me that I am not going down a dark path and hopefully in some blogs help someone who has dealt with or must deal with the card I have been dealt. 

Signing off,

NB

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